For a very long time the writer was looking at a tree, a thought or food and mechanically a relative word was appearing in his mind like “oak tree”, “fear” or “meatballs”, without being conscious of this process of automatically creating the word.. then for some reason a conscious realization of this process took place.. Then came a question whether its possible to see the tree without the word.. then it was discovered that this is also possible..
.. yesterday night there was a “flash”/insight that probably all this happens because of intense alertness of (the non mechanical part of) the mind.In a previous diary it was communicated this beautiful, extremely alive state where its possible to “catch” a thought, while it is rising from the depth, before a word that symbolizes this thought appears at all (para vani).. now it seems that this is the case when the tree is seen without the word.. the thought/word for the Tree tends to rise and an extraordinarily alert, alive mind, observes the thought and the thought dissolves prior to the word construction!
“How this happens” seems to be a distorted question, there is no such thing as a method for this to happen. Its the most effortless thing to happen yet at the same moment the question that comes in mind is a “how”.. the conditioned human mind words in terms of “how”, of methods, techniques, the human mind works in terms of intellectual effort.. it seems the only thing to do in order for this to happen, is to open the doors, to examine, to investigate if this is possible or not, with no preconceived opinions. If this happens once, something strange seems to take place.. inevitably this uninvited alertness will come again and again, connecting us with the present..
.. now is this any important? Probably yes, because the word is experience, past, time, it is an abstraction about the thing, its not the actual thing.. to see without the word unleasehs a sense of extraordinary beauty, an intense aliveness!
PS: It is not implied here that the word, the thought (which are essentially a unified movement) is an enemy that we should force to cease.. on the contrary, only thing that makes sense is absolute absence of suppression against the thought.. every intention of resistance/suppression is just another thought (that tries to suppress the initial thought/word)! So this silly trick/game of suppression is nothing more than the essence of division. It is just thought that is dividing itself into good/beneficial and bad/harmful thought.. and this division naturally brings psychological struggle, stress, confusion, pain, anxiety, sorrow!