How do we perceive life? As a sequence of necessary unpleasant habits (like working in a boring job) and a few pleasant ones? So we create pleasant habits like drinking a cup of coffee every morning morning, we watch TV at night, every Sunday to go out for launch, every last Friday of the month to eat in an expensive restaurant, every Monday night to go to the cinema while there is discount in tickets..? and then every now and then we arrange something that is out of this strict routine as a break, a trip, an excursion! And this is so well planned so as to try to turn the unknown to known.
So is this Life all about? Is it a repetition of habits till the day we die? And what is all these habits? Aren’t all these, petty little escapes from “what is”? Why do i wake up in the morning and say “today i will go to work but then comes a tasty spaghetti for launch and at night there is my favorite series, or an interesting soccer game”? Why we need that our day includes a few pleasant escapes? Is it that we feel our life is empty of pleasure, excitement, our life is dull so we desperately crave for a few pleasant breaks?
And aren’t escapes everywhere, not only in habits? I am feeling bored in a bar and i leave asap trying to escape from boredom.. I dislike someone and i am doing my best in order to avoid him trying to escape from his irritating behavior. Someone insults me and i attack him back, in order to avoid to see the actual fact, the fact of hurt. I listen to something and i instantly create a conclusion, trying to reduce a fresh, new statement in something known. I have a dialogue with someone and i escape by what is said by approving, disapproving, agreeing disagreeing, liking disliking. I comment on the unacceptable attitude of somebody because i think my life is uninteresting and there is some guilty pleasure, some brutal interest in gossiping about the mistakes of another. I am in a relationship that seems so flat and i escape in domination, possession, or in divorce in order to feel satisfaction, excitement. Or i find a casual secret lover to experience fresh excitement. And isn’t it an escape to suffer from death of a close one, or from abandonment of a loved one and try psychotherapy, ergasiotherapy, or to be continuously with friends? I don’t even dare to eat without watching TV because i feel eating is a boring situation on its own, so i would like to combine it with something rather more pleasant. So is this the case? We are terribly afraid to face our life as it is and we escape every single moment by means of thousands intellectual reactions, tricks? Someone should ask this question if one is at all serious.
As for the writer, he sees this is a fact! And how can we face this fact? Not “how”. Is it possible for somebody to go beyond all these intellectual escapes? The writer sees its crucial, urgent that a gap appears before reacting. A willing, effortless gap where probably its possible to see the futility of continuous escaping. Can this gap exist? If yes probably during this gap its possible that a timeless, choiceless, passive, non verbal observation of the escape takes place and then the escape reveals its whole meaning.
This is not a subject to debate, these words are not written in order to agree or disagree. The only thing one can do is to find for oneself.. direct experiencing rather than intellectual arguments can grasp truth.